There are a couple of things going on in my life at the moment which I am not too happy about.
There have been times, one too many of late, where I catch myself sighing in despair and numbed by indecision.
I hear you when you say that I am passively living my life. I hear you when you say that I am living a lie. I hear you when you say that you feel sad for me.
Because I feel all of that too.
As I wandered in the fields of my dream, I see another me who is living the kind of life I wished for but daren’t pursue. The moment I stretched out my hand to touch that other me, it evaporated, leaving neither a trace nor a scent of what could have been.
Tomorrow, I will dream again. It’s the same dream but with a tweak here and there, twisted and embellished by time to suit whatever my sub-conscious wished to perceive.
I hear myself telling you that you should try to walk in my shoes. I hear myself telling you that I wish things were different. I hear myself telling you that I feel tired and restless. I hear myself telling you that I love you.